Only realized that I only come looking for this blog only when I'm sad :( Can't help it that I really want to say something but I don't know how, so here's my 'easel' eh? :P I don't have someone that I really trust, you know, like really trusted to hold on to my secrets. Lol.
Soooo, what is my problem?
Hahahahahahahahaha. Ok dah.
My heart, I guess? Like sometime it want to do this, the next 2 minutes, it want other thing. Sometimes it doesn't feel a thing, like numbbbbbbbbbbbb. Sometimes it feels everything like I am confused whether I am sad, angry or actually happy when something happen. And my reaction towards something sucks too -___- Like my heart and my brain are not synchronized at all. Seriously mayyynnnn. What's happening to me :(
And now,
I just want to escape from everyone in my current life. My family, my four girls are on the exception list ok. It's not because they hurt me or maybe they do, a little but nvm, it's because I really don't contribute much in their life except to be a burden for them all. It's hurt me to be a burden for them. Like if I leave, their life would be better. Their life would be SOOOO much better without me in it. Seriously.
I don't know what to say anymore. Bye.
