#4

Some have it worse, aite? 

I can do this. 

It only hurts today, 

I will heal tomorrow.

I will get better.

I will be fine.

I will get through this.

#3

Assalamualaikum.

I just wanted to spill anything here because I just don't feel good right now. C'mon it's 0306 hours and I'm still wide awake. How can that be right? My sleeping pattern is all over the place. I just laugh at the small and stupid things even when it's not funny. I really don't feel like crying. Getting angry either. I just feel nothing and that somehow scares me. Feeling nothing means I'm breaking down. Being empty means I'm at the edge of the cliff and about to fall down. I hate it. I don't want to feel empty. I don't want to feel nothing. I can hurt anyone by feeling nothing. Believe me, I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt myself too. Sigh. 

I don't know what to say anymore. I want to spill. But I can't. I just can't. No words would come out and I'm just staring at my screen. I really want to say something. I really do.

#2

“

Maybe the moon is beautiful only because it is far.

 

لربما القمر ليس جميلا إلا لأنه بعيد

”

—	Mahmoud Darwish I am the moon.You may find me beautiful, soothes the heart, kind when you look at me and you barely know me. Once you're near me, you'll find me as a nightmare. A monster hiding behind a curtain of a girl. That's the reason why I rarely invite people to know me.

#1

“Don’t curse the emptiness. Its there for a reason. It is a wake up call to seek and find Him.”

—	Yasmin Mogahed Dan sememangnya, aku rasa kosong.