I just wanted to spill anything here because I just don't feel good right now. C'mon it's 0306 hours and I'm still wide awake. How can that be right? My sleeping pattern is all over the place. I just laugh at the small and stupid things even when it's not funny. I really don't feel like crying. Getting angry either. I just feel nothing and that somehow scares me. Feeling nothing means I'm breaking down. Being empty means I'm at the edge of the cliff and about to fall down. I hate it. I don't want to feel empty. I don't want to feel nothing. I can hurt anyone by feeling nothing. Believe me, I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt myself too. Sigh.
I don't know what to say anymore. I want to spill. But I can't. I just can't. No words would come out and I'm just staring at my screen. I really want to say something. I really do.
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