#5

I'm sorry if this post might be so depressing, I can't take it anymore.

It hurts when
You want to talk to someone but the walls you built are way up too high, you can't trust anyone, you feel like you might burden them.

It hurts when
you have to pretend none of they said matter.

It hurts when
you have to keep your facial expression straight like what they did doesn't give any impact to you.

It hurts when
you see someone whom you crave their care and attention, are busy giving it to someone else.

It hurts when
the person that you give your care and attention, doesn't really care about you.

It hurts when
people think you're happy (I'm certainly not. But I'm sorry I can't tell it to anyone. I don't know how)

It hurts when
you have to wake up everyday, being positive about everything but at the end of the day, they turn you down.

I am sorry that I am not good enough. I am sorry that I can't be someone that you guys expect me to be. I am sorry I am weak. I am sorry that I am the mistake.  I am sorry that cannot tell you this. I feel strong when nobody knows. But I don't feel good about it. And I cannot tell this to anyone. Because, I am not that strong.